I think these people are a bunch of fucking idiots.
When someone claims, “The hospitals are empty. Nobody is sick with COVID. All of these COVID deaths are being attributed to COVID that aren’t COVID deaths,” then I shall call you a fucking idiot.
These protests might include people who carry AK-47s, wave Confederate flags or Trump-Pence banners, but you will not find any doctors or nurses at these gatherings (at least not ones who are currently working in a hospital setting). But I have a feeling that those who do carry AK-47s, wave Confederate flags or Trump-Pence banners might soon be in need of a doctor, a nurse and perhaps a ventilator.
Speaking of medical professionals, here is a harrowing account from Dr. Helen Ouyang, a New York ER physician:
When I walk
through the hospital doors, the E.R. is a place I no longer recognize.
Intubated patients, of every age, are on ventilators everywhere. It
feels simultaneously electrifying and oppressive. But it’s also eerily
quiet. Family members and friends haven’t been allowed into the E.R. for
more than a week; most of the patients are too sick to talk; the few
without breathing tubes who are able to cough are muffled by their
masks. Oxygen hisses in the background. A couple of hours into my shift,
one of the nurses comes to me. She falls apart, tears streaming down
her inflamed, marked cheeks. She sobs out words of anger and frustration
and sadness. The morning, on top of the last several days, has crushed
her. I want to hug her, but I can’t.
Soon
after that, someone asks, “Doctor, is it OK to take the patient to the
morgue?” The other physician on duty and I look at each other. The
morgue? Who just died? Apparently, a patient who was waiting for an
inpatient bed, whose family had decided against extreme resuscitative
measures, had died, without us even knowing.
Several
days ago, only a few patients had Covid, but suddenly it seems we have
become, like facilities in Italy, a Covid hospital. Every patient seems
to test positive for it. I am shocked by the one or two negative results
I receive during a shift. We have to function as if everyone is
infected.
A co-worker tells me he used
three masks during the course of his shift. Three masks?! I respond.
That’s crazy! Then I realize I am the absurd one. The masks are meant
for single use, one per patient encounter; my colleague had used three
masks over a 12-hour shift, most likely having seen upward of 30
patients who potentially have Covid. It’s idiotic that I was shocked by
his using three masks, especially when many of our co-workers in the
city have fallen ill.
Patients who
test positive for the virus are unintentionally roomed with those who
test negative or whose tests are still pending, because the E.R. is
bursting. Even if we are exposed to a patient without proper personal
protective equipment, we are expected to return to work if we don’t have
symptoms. In Italy, where 61 doctors have already died from Covid (a
number that will grow past 100 in the next couple of weeks), health care
workers believe that they themselves expedited the spread of the virus.
There, the doctors are routinely tested for any exposures, even if they
are asymptomatic.
I have to shut down
thoughts about my own risks and mortality. I recall the words of my old
mentor, but I don’t think I can do this job unless I force myself to
believe in my own invincibility. Otherwise, with every violation of the
protective barrier, every instance of less-than-ideal protection, which
is almost every time, I would be paralyzed by thoughts of having
infected myself. I see a patient around my age intubated, hear about a
hospital colleague getting critically ill. A co-worker texts that her
classmate from residency is now intubated. I read an article about how
health care workers seem to suffer more from serious Covid infections,
even if they’re young, possibly as a result of being exposed to higher
initial doses of the virus. I’m not even sure this is true anymore —
I’ve seen plenty of critically ill patients in their 30s and 40s. I push
these thoughts away, immediately. Better to be lucky than to be good, I
remind myself. It’s the only thing that provides some reassurance. If I
feel like it’s not totally in my control, then I won’t completely lose
my mind over every mistake I make donning and removing my P.P.E. and
recycling single-use equipment.
So please don't tell me that COVID-19 is just the flu. Do not tell me that people aren't getting sick.
Look, I hate being out of work and not knowing when I'll find another job. I hate being stuck in an apartment (albeit a nice one) for 23 hours a day. And when I do go outside to get groceries, I hate having to go outside wearing a mask. But the alternative is much, much worse.
Those who are protesting at state capitols might exclaim, "Don't tread on us." But by gathering you risk infecting and killing others. So in reality the protesters are treading on us.
If it is a choice between listening to a bunch of people carrying AK-47s, Confederate flags and Trump-Pence banners or listening to doctors and nurses I shall listen to doctors and nurses every single time.
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